This is starting to be a long, strange trip. And unfun.
I'm feeling weird about not having pronouns,official bathrooms...about, well, being the T in LGBTIQ, the one *least* welcome at the party...
I almost came out to a friend, then backed off and lied about it...even though I'm sure he would have been fine with it-he's mostly straight, but wears more makeup than I do-goth makeup.
I am becoming more certain I'm right though(gulp). I am androgyne, both male and female.
I don't know quite what to do about that...almost like I want to explode in a billion different directions at once when I think about the gender thing.
But at the same time, I like myself more. My self-confidence and decisiveness are growing. My male side, given acknolwedgement and welcome, is busy making myself right at home.
I desperately want what I consider to be an A/G haircut at the moment-I'm obsessing about it. My muscles, given weights and protein supplements, are puffing up nicely. My breasts are getting smaller as my weight drops into normal range.
Again with the changes...it feels like there isn't solid ground under my feet anymore.
I go by Hylierandom. This is a blog about my life. Which might actually be getting better. Some of the posts are going to be really sad and triggery though. Guaranteed to contain lots of brain flakes, which are really nutritious and will help you go to the toilet easily.
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