weekend

This weekend was...not good.

The wife kept getting angry at me, whatever I said, on Saturday.

 By Sunday, she had me totally wigged out.

I just wanted away from her. ..I slept all this weekend because I could get away from her no other way.

I slept so much my butt was sore when I woke up.  And I binge-ate.

 I took a bunch of 5-htp to try and remain calm, and ended up taking too much...I got nauseous and very sleepy.

 

 I'm still reluctant to get around her.

I feel nervous, numb, sad and feel so very tired and helpless when I think about it.

I'm also thinking about hitting or cutting myself, because I can't get over the feeling I did something to deserve this...and at any rate, self-injury really will clear the cobwebs out like nobody's business.

She does this stuff and I just withdraw, shut down.